The other night I had a dream about my grandmother. It was my birthday and I stood in the kitchen looking towards the living room. In shock. Disbelief. Is this really a dream? Was that really my grandmother sitting on the couch as if she'd never passed away?
She sat on her usual corner spot on the old, nut brown couch, wearing her black Mumu dress with red flowers on it. She was watching her favorite TV show, The Golden Girls and laughed every time they said something funny. She then called me over to talk to her. I don’t remember much of what she said besides the words "Forgive me", and then she gave me the tightest hug. I caught a whiff of the rich perfume and cream she used to wear every day. The aroma that I would kill to linger through my nose just one more time. To see, smell, hear, and touch her. It all felt so surreal.
It is crazy to me that I wrote my personal essay about my grandmother and days later, she comes up in my dream! Not only that, but she showed up in my mother's dream on the same night.
We don’t seem to think much of our dreams simply because they are dreams. When we had nightmares as a child, our parents would usually say "It's okay, it's just a dream" just to make us feel better. To feel like what we were dreaming about isn't actually real. Although dreams aren't real, they have deeper meanings to them. Our emotions heavily impact the way we dream. I'm sure many of us have had dreams about falling, being naked in public, or even teeth falling out. Most of these dreams signify that either something is not going well in life, you're afraid, or stressed. The article from the website Very Well Mind, lists the types of dreams most people have and the meaning behind it. I thought it was very interesting to read that after having a dream about falling teeth indicates the possibility of being stressed or worried.
Another website that was very interesting was Power of Positivity. This lists seven signs that a loved one is contacting you. The fifth sign was "Your dream feels so real". The author describes that emotions are so strongly involved that you can feel their presence. This is often a "reawakening of grief" that the loved one did not "mean to cause pain, but wanted to be near you again". After writing my personal essay and having this dream, I realized that this was a reawakening of grief. My personal essay portrayed my real feelings that I have never spoken about with anyone about her passing and I truly believe that she was trying to contact me for comfort and reassurance.
Here is an old image of my grandmother and I
I really like how you told your story about your grandmother. It is very interesting how events such as dreams can bring up a lot of questions. Today I actually had a recall of a dream that I had while I was living it in real life. It's almost as my past dream had forthtold what my future was going to look like. I've heard that when you have that happen or you get a deja vu moments it means that you are where you are meant to be. I think for when I am extreme stressed my body reacts to what I am dreaming about. For example, once I jolted forward when I was dreaming about an aircraft hitting my stomach. I ended up with a concussion because at that time i was sleeping on a rack on a Navy ship. Most recently I smacked my boyfriend four times because in my dream I was trying to get up because my dog was supposedly peeing on the carpet. He wasn't. Dreams are very interesting I wish they weren't such a mystery.
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